Getting on the right track..

      Well its been 6 days, 6 long emotional days since he decided to drive back to CT. we've spoken since then, its helped my anger to settle a great deal. but my sadness still lingers, and I'm sure it will until i see him again. he's convinced we need this. in his own words "from the beginning i pledged us with unnecessary bullshit & need a fresh start with you"  as painful as it is, I'm trying to respect it. I'm trying to push away my pride & selfishness to realize maybe this is what we need. we were stuck in an unhealthy cycle, we got so caught up in petty fights, so caught up in emotions that we lost track of our senses.
      4 years apart was a long time, long enough for us to become strangers in a way. we had grown into 2 totally different people than were were in high school. when he moved in with me Feb. of 2011 we had no idea what each other needed, wanted. we couldn't communicate.  in a way, him leaving gives us a chance to to step back, look at the whole picture. we can take everything we learned & we can rebuild, confident in the fact that we can come together strong & with new found respect for each other.. hopefully sooner than later.
     Hes the only one for me & i the only one for him. we're both sure of this. no matter what our friends & families say, no matter how many negative opinions are shared with us, we know this love is real.  it may be hard for them to understand why were push through these struggles but its not about them. its about us. its about the promise i made to a boy when i was 15- no matter the distance, no matter the time, no matter the sacrifice ill stand by your side- i intend to honor that promise until the day the Lord calls me home.